Monday 10 December 2012

Hell

It has been such a long time since I blogged or read any blogs or ate the way I should be.  I don't have the internet at the moment since we moved into our lovely new flat and it may be another month or so til we get it so I can't imagine that my frequency of blogging will improve just yet.
I feel like I've been in hell, my sister lost custody of my niece and she's being adopted by some relatives of ours who live in the north, about 4 hours drive away.  We'll still be able to see her thank goodness, but not as often as I've become used to.  My sister is in a terrible state.
On top of this a close friend of mine committed suicide and few weeks ago, he is the first person close to me whose died and I'm struggling with discovering what grief feels like.

All I ask is that you don't forget about me.  I miss you all and miss reading your funny and heart warming posts.  I WILL BE BACK!  Fighting.  I just need to get through the next few weeks, terrified that my sister is going to kill herself, get used to Betty having moved away, learn from my grief.  I will come back fighting and I will lose the last 60+lbs.

Love you all xxx