I know I have been MIA - been really struggling with shitty family situation - my sister being responsible for the care of her daughter, my beautiful 5 month old niece, Betty - whilst drinking and taking hard drugs. Totally unbearable and I am furious and disgusted at my sister's behaviour. I just want to take my niece and give her the loving environment she deserves.
I have been seriously tight the last few weeks and have been surviving on sliders mostly, which is just crap and makes me feel crap. My bandiversary is on Monday and although I won't have quite reached halfway, my weight had gone back up to over 200lbs and I've managed to lose 3lbs getting me back to my lowest of 197lbs. Maybe I can make that 196lbs by Monday to at least have a new low to celebrate a year banded.
I haven't done any exercise in a LONG TIME! I feel like I'm in limbo because we're living with Ben's parents and waiting to find our own place. Ideally we'll be moving in 3-4 weeks if we manage to find somewhere. I haven't wanted to blog because I feel like such a failure. Like I'm not trying hard enough and complaining all the time. I was up to date with everyone's blogs until about a week ago when I just ran out of time - so much reading to do for uni - but from today I'll be back on track reading and do my best to comment when I can. If you think of it, send some good vibes my way. Thinking of you all.