Tuesday, 6 September 2011
Quivering with antici...pation.
My consultation is tomorrow at 2pm. Obviously I can't sleep because I'm SO EXCITED and nervous (and have long term insomnia) but mostly excited. I'm in a position where if all goes well I can put down my deposit there and then and in doing so, secure my surgery date (hopefully October 29th). I just really want to get some of this rolling, I want more info and confirmation that I'm a good candidate for surgery and once surgery is booked I can finally breathe a sigh of relief and gradually start unzipping this fat suit I've been wearing my whole life. I'm so over it. I'm a bit scared about going up there and having to talk about my weight and everything, it's humiliating, but I know that that's what they deal with everyday and I don't have to be embarrassed. I can't believe this is happening. One day...I'm going to wear a bikini. Ha, sounds like a joke in my head right now, but I mean it. Thank you all so much for your comments and for following me, if I'm not following you yet just comment with a link to your blog, I'm ploughing through them from start to finish, I LOVE hearing about your lives and your journeys, it's so inspiring. I've been met with such warmth by you all, it's LOVELY!! x