Monday, 12 December 2011
Ok, so I'm having a bit of a tough time with food. I'm able to eat a lot more than I should be able to and it's so hard to not to revert back to old habits when it feels like nothing's in my way. I try to remember why I'm doing this before eating, but it doesn't always happen. I know everyone struggles once in a while. I'm just afraid that this is all too much a case of willpower, and if so, how is it different from before? I hope that once I get a couple more fills, things will change. In the meantime, I've been trying to get my protein and water in and I've been to the gym the last two days. In fact, on Saturday, I ran for 11 minutes!!! Remember a couple of weeks ago I ran for 8 minutes which was the longest I'd ever run, well how's that for a 30% increase!! I was very proud of myself, and it felt good to get moving again. I'm heading home for the holidays tomorrow and I look forward to being active when I get there. I'm scared that I'll gain weight again this week, maybe I should use that fear to help motivate me. I'm just afraid that I won't be able to do this.