We went out last night to a comedy club venue where Ben and others from the region (he's a supervisor in a supermarket) put on acts to raise money for Comic Relief (a big charity fundraiser that is on every year in the UK - I think the total raised was about £70 million). It was all a bit cringe worthy and led to me drinking a couple of large bottles of fruity cider and then giving in to chocolate on the way home, but it was nice to get out and do something a bit different. I've been spending so much time with my head in books lately as I try and finish my degree. I'm not mad at myself about the indulgence because I'm just taking it easy at the moment with my food, choosing instead to focus on movement and exercise. My eating disorder is such a psychological problem that the more I try and battle it through diet alone, the more twisted and knotted it gets in my head. At least exercise is more straight forward - though still requires motivation, an internal battle with laziness (to which I am shamefully prone) and an organization of my time. I'm hoping that I can gradually increase my exercise and fitness levels and have this in turn motivate me to improve my diet.
I'm very happy to be blogging again, I love reading all your blogs, I get such a wonderful feeling of solidarity from your all. Love xxx