Thursday 19 January 2012

But it's Thursday!

Still not up to my preferred standard of blogging, but have been reading more consistently and I WILL get there!  I finally told the boyfriend about the band.  I sent a text telling him, just couldn't get the words out face to face.  Obviously, he has absolutely no problem with it and was interested to know a little more.  I knew it wouldn't be any issue, I just couldn't make myself say the words, you know!

I had my second fill on Tuesday, got another 2ml so am now about to 6 in a 10ml band.  The nurse (who was completely awesome!) said I was an exceptional example of weight loss and that I was doing so well, she said usually people don't lose much weight if any with no restriction, so I should be very proud of myself.  I think being part of this Boobs crew skews your perceptions of normal band success because we all do SO WELL.  Don't you think?  I think blogging plays a huge part for all of us in our continued success and I'm pretty sure all our surgeons or nurses would say we're exceptional examples.  Seeing as the average weight loss in two years with the band is only about 50%, I don't think any of us aren't knocking that out of the water.  Not to say that we don't struggle, and that sometimes we gain some weight back, but we're here and we're working hard every day to reach our goal.  I don't want my goal to be only a 50% loss of my excess weight.  I'm striving for 100% no less!

I'm weighing in today because I'm going back home (from uni) tomorrow and won't be near my scale.

Starting Weight: 17st9lbs (247lbs)
Current Weight: 14st13lbs (209lbs)
Loss this Week: 3lbs
Total Loss: 38lbs!

Very happy with that!  The joys of a hefty fill and being on liquids and mushies!  It feels really good to be back on track.  And now that I've told the boyfriend, eating with him will be easier, he'll understand why I need to make certain choices so I don't have to just eat crap because I don't want to suggest otherwise.  He's a boy so he'll eat anything.

My next mini goal is to lose the next 4lbs taking me to 205lbs which will mean 3st lost!  This is a big milestone as when I've lost weight before, I've often lost about 2st and then gained it back.  I'm aiming to reach this goal by the 4th Feb.

Love you all xxx

Friday 13 January 2012

Friday Weigh In - First in a While!

Hi darlings!!  I know I'm a terrible slacker, but I am gradually catching up on blogs - and I'm thinking about you all.  But I must get back to regular blogging because it definitely keeps me accountable.  And I miss you otherwise.  I just wanted to say how nice it's been to see more pictures of JRD and Rachel who were closet bloggers before.  You are both SO BEAUTIFUL!  I must remember to post some more pictures, maybe I'll do a comparison shot in my undies like I did at first to see if there's any difference now that I'm pretty much a third of the way to goal!  It's Friday so...

Starting Weight: 17st9lbs (247lbs)
Current Weight: 15st2lbs (212lbs)
Loss This Week: 1lb
Total Loss: 35lbs!

So there you have it.  It's been very slow going over Christmas, but to be honest, I was eating like an absolute hippo for a good few weeks.  Seriously, I even had donuts and burgers, stuff that I never normally ate even before the band.  I don't know what was going on.  It's like I just wanted to be free of it for a little while.  But now I'm back up at uni after a month at home I'm back on plan, so since Tuesday I've been doing really well, getting around 100g protein, keeping calories around 1300 and exercising.  Need to get back on it with water though.  So hopefully I'll get a good weight loss next week if I can keep working hard.

So things are going very well with my boyfriend, though it's really hard now that we're apart.  It's only a couple of hours to see each other but it's expensive to go back and forth between uni and home and I have almost no money this term.  I am looking for a job though.  So I haven't told my boyfriend that I have the band yet.  I know that he'd have no problem with it at all and be completely supportive, but I just felt like I couldn't tell him because I was eating so badly the past few weeks.  How can you gorge yourself on 2 massive slices of pizza and then say, oh by the way, I have the lap band.  I just didn't know how to bring it up...  I know I just need to explain that I don't have very much restriction yet and am able to (though shouldn't) eat anything.
I have a fill on Tuesday, I'm hoping that the way I can eat will change with more restriction and then I can tell him, once I feel like I'm back on the path to success.

Sorry if it's a bit of a dull one, I'm in a hurry!  But I love you all and will write more soon and get back to commenting!! x

Tuesday 3 January 2012

Holy Cankles!

It's been SO long since I posted (and read or commented on your blogs, forgive me!!) - but I have good reason!  Remember new man from my lost post, well said man is now my BOYFRIEND!!  Sorry to sound like  a soppy teenager, but I can't tell you how excited I am to have found someone.  It's all gone crazy quickly and there are moments when I wonder how on earth this all happened, one minute I barely new him, next thing you know I've been with him everyday since 23rd Dec!  He makes me feel safe, he accepts my crazy, we have fun and it's just easy.  TOO EXCITED!

Anyway,  I've barely paid any attention to what I'm eating and I did have a fair few glasses of champagne over Christmas (stressed myself out over bubbles and the band, anyone know a lot about this?) and didn't really deny myself anything, am able to eat a lot (2 weeks til my 2nd fill) but have butterflies in my stomach because of my new man, so haven't really felt bothered about eating.  And to my delight, I lost 4lbs over the last couple of weeks.  I don't know how long it's been since my last official weigh in, and I'm not going to hit my target of 14st13lbs (205lbs) by 7th Jan, but I'm currently at 15st3lbs (209lbs) so I'm out of the 2 teens, hurrah!!  (Also, I guess a bit of the old sexercise helps!!)

I feel like a TERRIBLE blogger and friend to you all (Lani, I promise I will email you back soon), I hope you've all had wonderful holidays and I will try and catch up as much as I can and blog more frequently.  But know that I love you all and I think of you daily. xxxxx