Saturday 7 April 2012

Blog Fog.

I want to be blogging more.  I really do.  And I read your blogs and am so entertained and love being updated frequently on your lives and never do I find it a drag hearing about your lives and bands.  And yet, I've convinced myself I have nothing interesting to say, that you'll read my blog with a sigh - BORING - I hear you say.  Now, I know this is all silly and irrational, I'm prone to this sort of paranoia - and so really, what I need to do, is re-evaluate blogging, what it's for, why I do it, what it means to me.

  1. Accountability - checking blogs everyday keeps the band, weight loss, exercise etc in the forefront of my mind - I am prevented from disappearing into the abyss of denial where I pretend none of this is happening to me, that I don't have a weight problem and that I can eat whatever I like and be skinny (MADNESS!!)
  2. Friends - a really love you all.  There I said it.  Don't care if it's unrequited, it's too late, it's out there like romantic puke.  I feel really connected to so many of you bloggers, our gorgeous JRD for example, who I'm convinced would be my bestie if we lived in the same place.  And I love all your comments, it's so wonderful to know that so many people follow and comment and care!  (Maybe I should remember this when dipping into the silly paranoia - see above.)
  3. Tips/Advice - there are lots of seasoned bandsters on here whose advice is invaluable, but whether someone is as far along as me (nearly 6 months) or only just starting out, there is always something to be learned.  Whether it's recipe ideas, problems that others are maybe too shy to talk about (bodily or mental) or good workouts.
  4. Inspiration - seeing the progress that everyone is making is so inspiring and heart warming and I feel so proud of everyone and want to be like them.
So, I want to be part of this community.  Blogging for me hasn't been particularly cathartic in the way I was hoping it would be because I'm so anxious of what everyone thinks of me and I'm censoring myself in all sorts of ways because of this - what a terrible bore!  So maybe that should be my first blogging challenge.  To write whatever I damn well want.  Sound good??

Now, to finish, off, I'm sure you've all been just dying to see what my gorgeous boyfriend (and roomie!) looks like - here's a photo of the two of us from a couple of weeks ago.  Living with him is heaven so far!


11 comments:

  1. So happy for you! YES - you need to blog! We need to hear from you and you never bore me!

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  2. Aw, Mari, we would TOTES be besties if we lived in the same place - the next time I'm in the UK, you can BET I'll be showing up on your doorstep!! Uh, not in a creepy way or anything, though...;] I am NEVER bored by what you write, and I say go for it - say whatever you want. This blog is for YOU and what you need it to be, not to entertain any of us. I want to hear all about your life!! Hee hee! Your love is very sweet, so glad the roommate situation is working out so well. Sending BIG hugs your way!! xoxoxoox

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  3. I know how you feel sometimes, but for all those reasons you listed we should keep blogging. I love reading your posts. I get excited to think I am conversing with someone on the other side of the world. How cool is that! by the way, love the new photo you posted too cute of you both!

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  4. We love you too! I enjoy reading your posts...keep them coming, please. You and your boyfriend look so happy together :) I'm glad you found one another.

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  5. awww you look so cute! & happy... that is the most important part!

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  6. You should always blog, I am never bored by your stuff and wish I heard from you more often!! It does not all have to be band-related, just keep it coming!

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  7. I felt like that a lot at first, but once I remembered that I'm writing this blog for me and for nobody else, it freed me up to not care what others think, because it's not for them, it's for me.

    You and your boyfriend look so cute!!!

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  8. Yay - love the pic and loved this post!! Keep blogging - I miss seeing you!! xxx

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  9. I love the pic and he is handsome, I hope he treats you like a queen! I write for me, and no one else. I love having this place to vent.

    Hugs, Love your blog!

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  10. Hello Mari,I just started following your Blog and I love it already not boring ,and I love that while I am reading I have an accent lol... I just started blogging I am not very good at it, but check it out if you would like.. I will be banded on July 5th! you are the first banded blogger I have "found" with mental illness (god I hate that phrase) but it is nice to have found another, I too have anxiety.(and ptsd) I can imagine that mental health problems can make this all a little harder (like everything else) I do not have the guts to put anything in my blog about I would not feel comfortable writing about it since a lot of people in my family read it and do not know about my " hmmm issues?", but I may start a 2nd blog about my struggles with mental health -how and if it makes my "lap band life" harder than it has to be. anyways I am going on and on, just wanted to say HI, and I think it is great how open you are in your blog...I will be reading... Theresa http://bsbandedmama.blogspot.com/

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