Monday 7 May 2012

I'm Back!

Well hi gorgeous ladies, I have returned!  I'm sorry for my absence and lack of reading and commenting, it's been a pretty hellish few weeks, but I'm starting to feel better now that I only have one exam left, the pressure is less for now.  While I was away I became an Aunty!!  My big sister gave birth to tiny Betty, just 5lb5oz on 5/5/12.  She's perfect and gorgeous!

So now that I'm back, I've decided that this is Phase 2 - I'm completely fed up of not losing weight, not using my band, not following bandster rules, not working out.  Some of it is self-sabotage I guess, I wasn't doing it perfectly so why do it at all mentality.  But also I have to remember that I suffer greatly with my mental health and so my comfort eating is off the charts a lot of the time and that I'm not always going to be able to control it, I'm not always going to feel happy, I'm not always going to know where else to turn other than to food.  But I can do my very best the rest of the time.  I'm not going to let a few depression led binges take control and cause me to just eat whatever I want all the time (which is what I've been doing).  So, Phase 2 of my band journey goes as follows:

Exercise: minimum 45mins cardio, 15mins resistance 5 x per week.  Plus walking at least 30 mins per day.
Food: 1200-1300kcal per day, 60-80g protein, eat from my lovely new small square plate and with my lovely new little baby cutlery (why it's taken me so long to purchase these, I don't know!  Should've got them as soon as I was banded!)  Measure everything including milk in tea etc.  Plan all meals in advance and track everything.

I'm going to allow myself treats occasionally, and I'm going to have 2 snacks or so per day.  There's no way I can eat enough at one time (of healthy food) to meet my calorie goal with just 3 meals a day.

I'm going to catch up with all your blogs as much as I can today, I'm thinking of you and missing you.  Thank you for your kind comments on my last post, and extra special thanks to Morgan who emailed me to let me know I was an her thoughts, thank you so much, Morgan, meant the world to me.
Lots of love x


  1. So happy you are back!! I have been to that dark place a few times in my life and sometimes you just need a lifeline to pull you out.

    I love to see your new commitment to your life, keep on keeping on, sweets!

  2. I am so glad to hear from you, and congratulations on being an Aunt! PICTURES please !!!!

  3. Glad to see you back! Phase 2 is going to be awesome. :)

  4. Aww, just got done catching up on your old entries from last month (been absent as well) and saw the pic of you and your beau. You make a lovely couple!

  5. Welcome back! I think I'm going to try and work this phase with you. I've been absolutely awful. Have to get back in the game.

    Congratulations on becoming an aunt!