Tomorrow marks one year since the start of my pre-op diet. TO mark the occasion, I am going to start tracking again. Haven't tracked for a good while now, not consistently at least. The move went smoothly but my anxiety and wackybonks went into full overdrive and I was really suffering for a week or so. Feel a little bit better now but uni starts back up tomorrow so I have more challenges to face. As a result of all the stress my band was as tight as...a tiger? I was so sick and stupid, desperate to eat to soothe my misery but pbing everything I put in my mouth til I could hardly tolerate liquids. Duh, that's the quickest way to fucking up your band. So I pulled myself together and started taking things slowly slowly, tiniest mouthfuls imaginable. Sadly, sliders were my only friends in a very gloomy period where I was desperate to eat so I haven't lost any weight due to the tightness, but I haven't gained any either. After three days of constant pbing, I'm glad to say those days are now a week behind me and I'm doing well. My portions are little and I can't eat much of anything solid in the mornings.
My aim is to plan and pack everything I need for my days at uni - I have a 2.5hr commute each way but classes are only three days a week and I'll be staying up there on a Thursday night with friends. That way I know that if I only eat what I've packed then I will be sticking to my calories. It's also a money saving exercise because money is almost as tight as my band was!!
Our darling Sarah at Fat on the Inside reminded me that I'd set myself a goal to reach half way by my bandiversary. It's still do-able if I put my head down. 15 days, 3.5lbs. Bring it.
I love that you are back on track and only 3.5 from your goal! You can do it!ReplyDelete
I'm sorry things have been so stressed. Sounds like you've got a good plan when you start uni.ReplyDelete
You can do it babes. You're a machine when you are on a roll. Just think about how much harder it was this time last year, how far you have come and how much you want to make this milestone. Will email you my number in case you want text support. love ya xxReplyDelete