As expected, I was up on the scale today, but only by 0.4lbs (making me 203.4lbs) so not as bad as the last couple of days which were showing a lb higher than that. It's easy to blame it all on the TOM but I had some good days and some bad days. I had some days where every meal was on point but I ate a bag of sweets in a mad hurry on the train because I felt very upset (a LOT of shit going on with my sister at the moment). So it wasn't a perfect week, but every day that is better than the last is progress.
Anyway, so instead of being pissed off or upset by the scale not being down this week, an hour after seeing the number, at 9am ( I am NOT a morning person), I went to the gym - and guess what........
I RAN 1.5 miles!!! It took me just over 21 minutes (might as well have been walking!) but I did it, and the whole time I was on the treadmill, I told myself I could do it. Over and over again. It is such a mental game with me. If I get on that treadmill and baby myself, saying 'oh, you're a bit tired today and at least you're here - you probably won't last more than 10 minutes so it's ok to stop there' - I will never progress. Instead, with my new sports bra in place (good though less supportive of the big girls than my other one), I just went for it and conquered!!!
So I'm feeling rather smug. I'm really looking forward to getting my fill tomorrow, I've been in a bit of, let's see how much we can get away with eating, mode and what I really want is to see how little the band helps me to survive on whilst still nourishing me and giving me the energy I need to live and exercise.
Big love to all x
wow..thats a 14 min mile---thats awesome good for you!ReplyDelete
Great job on RUNNING!! I really need to get to that point. You got this!ReplyDelete
That's a long run! Wonderful for you to be able to do that :) Maybe someday I'll be able to, too.ReplyDelete
Fantastic Job on the running!!! You should be proud of yourself!!ReplyDelete
You are doing great with running, and I am happy to see that! Keep it up and stay focused! You will prevail!ReplyDelete
Great job getting that run in, and good luck with your fill. Hope it gives you some restriction - I know it's a hard road when you feel like you're not where you need to be. Keep your eyes on the prize.ReplyDelete